Your gift came in the mail today.

( A draft I had saved from Christmas break. I can still feel this.)

It was true. I miss you everyday. Like clockwork. Even now.  When you said you'd call later. And you've most likely fallen asleep on me. It's okay. I still love you. Yeah...I really do.......Oh, boy....

1st College Semester Down

3.50 GPA

Honor Roll

#BOW

different now

his face. his voice. that one message i've replayed and re saved for the past week was all i needed to hear. it was more than enough to deepen the creases of my smile. then you said it. those words I usually run from. yet, from your lips they flowed unadulterated and effortless.  as unexpectedly as it came, i needed this love present in my life. your love. you've restored my faith in its meaning, and the ability to keep loving when all the wrong in the world seems to take power. don't mistake my timidity for rejection. or even think for one second i don't feel the same way you do. my appreciation for your spirit became too overwhelming for the moment, and my heart couldn't articulate its words. but i felt them. unlike i've ever felt before. i need your heart right now. unlike anything i've ever needed before. so, i'll regard things differently this time around. just whatever you do, please don't let me down.

everything i thought i knew has changed...is changing.

one thing at a time.

finish this book.

stop worrying. it isn't necessary. things WILL work out.

faith, remember?

SMILE!

cherish today. and tomorrow.

&

i'm missing him...again.

So,

the pizza man tried my faith tonight. Totally rude and disrespectful.

It's official.

Math 107 is going to keep me up all night. No sleep for me.


Oh, well...only 2 more hours of my life shall be spent in that class.

So, just in case you were wondering...

The WE I mentioned in the start of this blog is no longer. WE had to let go. At times, I miss it, but it wasn't meant to be. I wanted it too much rather than letting it flow. Thanks to US, I learned of a new kind of happy. The kind where I'm in control. I learned to do me by any means necessary.

And by doing so...
 I found a new WE in which I find solace. :)

HAVE

FAITH!

I worry too much....

I even annoy myself with it. I just can't help it. How on does an English major get a B-....in English? *Le sigh* But...I shall not worry. It's not completely over yet. There's time... and hope...and prayer. Things WILL be okay.

I've missed this.

This sharing of thoughts via world web. It brought me peace.